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My Memoir. By: Alix Q

Last year was a traumatizing year full of drama and criticism. Every girl in my class felt insecure about themselves because of what another girl had told them. Although, there was one experience that made me feel the worst of all. When my closest friends Michelle, Brooke and Leah called me ugly our friendship was never the same again. We started growing further apart and finally just stopped talking to each other. I don’t really even ever see them any more and when I do that memory flashes through my head.

I had hung out with Michelle, Brooke and Leah all year and I thought they were the best friends I could ever have. They were the popular girls so I thought I was going to be popular just because I hung out with them. It turns out they weren’t the close friends I thought they were. The big thing last year was playing truth or truth; truth or truth is truth or dare without the dares. So one day at lunch we were all sitting together devouring delicious food and cracking up at the funny questions and answers.

It started out as fun questions like “ Who do you like?” and “What is your favorite food?” but then came the question “ Who do you think is the ugliest in our class?” We started with Brooke and she scanned the cafeteria as if she was a hawk looking for the right time to swoop down and catch a field mouse. Then her eyes locked on me and she reluctantly sat down. She blurted out “Alix is the ugliest.” They all said “ Don’t be offended if we call you the ugliest.” But who wouldn’t be offended by that. Next was me and I passed since I didn’t think it was right to say someone is the ugliest. Next was Leah and since she didn’t want to say who was the ugliest out loud she mumbled it to Michelle secretly. Finally, Michelle was up. She said Leah only because she thought Leah said her. It turned out Leah and Michelle both thought I was the ugliest in our class.

Then the reasons why I was the ugliest came up. I hate your hair, you’re too tall, and I just don’t think you’re the prettiest girl around. That made me feel like I should just stay locked up in my room all day like Cinderella. I went back to class that day bawling. No one said anything because I was doing my best to try and hide it. I had my head buried in my book trying not to think about it but the sayings kept replaying in my head. Michelle, Brooke, and Leah were all sitting in a corner of the room laughing away. I was thinking that they were laughing at me because I was crying about how they were calling me ugly. I ran home that night crying and I told my mom all that had happened at school and I will always remember what she said “ No matter what other people say about you always stay true to yourself because you are beautiful in your own way.” That made me feel better about myself and that I should be proud of what and myself I am capable of.

I realized that no matter what people say you should always believe that you are beautiful in your own way. If your friends make fun of you they aren’t true friends. Now that I have found great friends that accept me the way I am I feel better about myself and I am more confident. When they called me ugly my confidence was shattered. I will always be the person I want to be and not the person other people want me to be.